On the Run

True to my nature, I have waited almost a month to update this blog. I've had a few different things during this time that i believe are worth mentioning. After this last update, I spent about 2 weeks down in Chula Vista taking care of my grandma who had knee surgery and had trouble moving around her house. i came back in town however, because my sister finally graduated high school. its been a long and difficult road but she made it. it was nice to have all of the family together to support her. after that I found myself visiting Austin at his school on my free days and soon going to his going away party. thankfully, i knew ahead of time that it would be difficult but i don't think I could've possibly prepared myself enough. it's been really hard to experience this separation even though its been a rather short span of time. its a strange feeling not hearing from him everyday but it will be a trial period and a chance for us to really pray about if this is really what God wants for us. I was able to go up to my aunt's house in LA after he left which was nice to have a distraction, and I love hanging out with that aunt. I managed to come home a whole day before leaving for mission viejo for the week. I'm currently there, actually. visiting my cousin and my aunt and uncle for a while. its been several years since i visited them so i figured it was high time. Saturday I will be heading back to town to support Amy as she graduates and stay in town a grand total of 4 days. Then i'm back off to LA and then Dallas until July 3. seems to be a busy month for me and next month I'll be up in LA weekly as well. I suppose its better to stay busy and distracted that have a bunch of time at home moping and bored. We shall see how the rest of this summer unfolds.

"We All Struggle With Forward Motion" (Relient k)

well once again i have managed to slack on this whole blogging scene. I remain jobless, which is currently fine with me. I'll be working in LA alot of the summer watching my cousin, so I believe a job for 2 weeks would be pointless. I will be going to Dallas in June to visit my cousins and half uncle (?) lol. I'm really excited since I haven't seen them in a couple years. I have made a decision about where I will be going in the fall. Its Manhattan. yep, this west coast girl is officially concurring the east coast now. I will be moving sometime in August, probably around the 9th or so. my "phenomenon" as I called it, has not ended but is now under control. I have found a new prospect, as Lea calls them. We have had fun just talking alot and getting to know each other these last few weeks. We will both be moving to the east coast about the same time and its been really cool just seeing how strangely God works sometimes. I look forward to seeing where God decides to take this new friendship. I also had my 23rd birthday last week. It was kinda a fail at first when my family ate dinner without me but Jess, Amy, and Austin gave me a second chance at a nice birthday dinner. God bless them. I had a mellow birthday dinner thing this past weekend which was nice. I find myself in constant motion lately which has been fun and exciting but today I finally had some down time. It seems easiest though to remain busy and keep myself from having time to think about how hard it is going to be to move again. I love all the constant change and excitement but sometimes its nice to just embrace home. I've had home for the last 9 months though, and its time for me to embark on yet another adventure. Right now I have no idea what my future holds over on the east coast. I hold on though knowing that my Savior does, that I have friends in NY who will help, and that I have a piece of home a few hours away when I need it. Time for me to just hold on and have faith during this next turn in this ride called life, and I think I'm ready. Praise Him always!

questions in life

well i have definitely slacked over the last 4 months or so. i guess my new years resolution didn't last very long. haha. alot has changed since then. i no longer work at intouch sales. the company has lost a substantial amount of money and laid of 25 of us. i'm not entirely upset about this though because i didn't actually enjoy sitting still for endless amounts of time. i have checked in with my counselor and i actually only have 2 classes left to finish my degree. i couldn't be happier about that. i've basically come to a point again where i have to change schools. i'm not sure what my next step is. i think i'm moving out of state, but most likely at least out of the county. so at this point in time, i have no idea where i'll be living in the fall. its going to be a suprise. haha. my life is very much up in the air right now. i seem to be experiencing this strange phenomenon as well. suddenly i seem to be the object of affection of every male thing that moves. while i'm sure this sounds extremely conceited, its true. i dont know when or how it happened but all of a sudden guys are coming out of the woodwork causing the opposite problem of before. haha. however, i think i am still nursing some wounds and do not think pursuing any relationships at this time is a particularly wise idea. in due time, in due time. so currently my life's existance is a bunch of questions: what guy, what shool, what state, what job? i guess this is what happens when you just live day by day without any planning. i'll figure it out eventually. well, Praise Him always!

A Time For Changes

Well this past week or so has been pretty nonstop. It has involved some adventures though including failed attempts to go to the snow. i've continued to spend lots of time with caitlyn and the ibanez's which has been fun and they've definitely been pushing me further in the whole social aspect as well as the nocturnal arena. between that time i have also managed to finally get a job again, which is amazing. it took forever! i have started training and it seems like a pretty straight forward kinda thing. i am now a student advisor, all the work is done over the phone though. i have also started school back up, cue the homework and boredom. the good news is though, i like all of my professors, which helps a lot. lastly, me and caitlyn have decided we're going to NY this summer to visit danielle and everybody, as well as CO to visit her grandparents. should be a good time. overall i'd say this last week or so has been very busy and full of change. i definitely think this is a new chapter in my life. we shall see what all it involves. Praise Him Always!

Bike Rides are the Hott New Thing

Well, this week has been a little bit mellower than last week, thankfully. Thursday we did celebrate my sister's birthday. We went and saw gulliver's travels and then headed over to the smith's for dinner and cake. friday nick and bre came over and we wandered around the mall and old town for a while. We also,finally, got new tubes for my bike and went for a bike ride. we stopped by josh's and carissa's houses on our route and said hello as well. saturday, i was back up in south bay for marcely and jeff's wedding. it was an awesome ceremony, pastor steve did a wonderful job. when i got home my aunt and cousins were down to finally celebrate christmas with us. sunday we had the smiths over for football again and me and bre went on the longest and hardest bike ride ever! i wanted to die! haha. monday morning, i had to drag my body out of bed at 4am and drive back up to woodland hills and watch my cousins +2 for the day. made a good chunk of money though and got home about 9 last night. i ended up crashing almost immediately after as well. This morning was nice, i went for a walk/ bike ride with jackie and hung out with her for a while. getting ready to hangout with caitlin and go on another bike ride with her. its just too nice of a day to pass it up! :) Praise Him Always!

You've Never Been To Coronado!?

it has definitely been a full week. caitlyn has continued to kidnap me and take me on adventures. we were able to hangout with sarah and josh for a while at the mall on saturday and work on josh's closet. afterwards, i went to britney's 16th birthday party. i can't believe she's 16 already. so crazy! she had a dj'd party, which was fun and i had alot of time with breanna finally. sunday brought a service that i wasn't working on anything. it was unusual but nice. the smith's and compton's came over to watch the playoffs and we all hungout for the day. we finally got some stuff figured out as well. monday brought rest after constant motion the days before. i got alot done though that morning and met with carrie for our study. college group was awesome and refreshing, i was so glad to be back. we went and hung out at tgif for a while after as well. tuesday brought a trip to grossmont to pay for the upcoming semester. afterwards i went to grandma toni's and i finally saw coronado island for the first time. headed back to temecula when we were done and went to melissa's to teach her how to knit. she totally ended up making a scarf that looked more like a bikini but she's learning. then off to caitlyn's house to spend the night. tuesday brought an early start as we went to the ice skating rink with josh and caleb. it was a total blast skating around and goofing off. josh knocked me down twice, so i'm sore and bruised now but it was worth it. of course, since we went ice skating we had to get chipotle. after stuffing our faces, we all headed home. i got some rest and then headed to church. it was small last night but nice. i spent some time catching up with sophie afterwards at barnes & noble, a great time of fellowship if you ask me. now today brings my sister's 20th birthday. she is officially out of the teens. later tonight we'll go bowling and out to dinner before youth group. hopefully she has a good time. happy birthday, nana. Praise Him Always!

Kidnappings and Nerf Bullets

Well once again i have slacked on my blogging duties. it has been a busy couple of weeks. i have been spending a lot of time with caitlyn lately as she seems to believe i am depressed and must be distracted. my and my friend have, once again stopped talking, this time it may be permanent. i don't know. the decision is entirely up to him and God. we have finally come to realize that the "just friends" title no longer works for us and apparently now its all or nothing. unfortunately, this point in time its nothing. the hope is to one day return to speaking again but i have no guarantees of such a thing ever happening. thus caitlyn believes i am depressed and need to be out of the house. it has been fun to be kidnapped and taken on random adventures with her though, so i definitely can't complain. i managed to experience some drug deals in murrieta and a naked man with carrie and carissa, this vacation has been eventful to say the least. we also celebrated christmas and new years since i last updated. christmas was good, we spent time down in SD with my grandma and the rest of my mom's family minus crappy uncle. it was nice to be able to hangout with everyone, watch football and movies, and make fun of each other. (this is a loving tradition on that side of the family) new years also went well. i spent alot of the day taking care of things at home but afterward i was able to spend some time at mikael's house before their party. i left the taylor's house and went to a swing dancing party. me and caitlyn didn't stay long but it was fun while we were there. then off to carol's house where we watched the kids, movies, and stuffed our faces with carol's delicious snacks. overall i think it went rather well. now life is once again starting to mellow back out before school starts back up. i am currently up in LA for a couple days watching Joey and Gino while their parents work. so in between blowing up army men and shooting each other with nerf bullets, i have managed a spare minute to update this thing. 2 more weeks before school starts, just enough time to freshen up on my russian and figure out what i'm gonna do about that stupid math class i took. wth!? hope all has been well with the rest of you. Praise Him Always.