"We All Struggle With Forward Motion" (Relient k)

well once again i have managed to slack on this whole blogging scene. I remain jobless, which is currently fine with me. I'll be working in LA alot of the summer watching my cousin, so I believe a job for 2 weeks would be pointless. I will be going to Dallas in June to visit my cousins and half uncle (?) lol. I'm really excited since I haven't seen them in a couple years. I have made a decision about where I will be going in the fall. Its Manhattan. yep, this west coast girl is officially concurring the east coast now. I will be moving sometime in August, probably around the 9th or so. my "phenomenon" as I called it, has not ended but is now under control. I have found a new prospect, as Lea calls them. We have had fun just talking alot and getting to know each other these last few weeks. We will both be moving to the east coast about the same time and its been really cool just seeing how strangely God works sometimes. I look forward to seeing where God decides to take this new friendship. I also had my 23rd birthday last week. It was kinda a fail at first when my family ate dinner without me but Jess, Amy, and Austin gave me a second chance at a nice birthday dinner. God bless them. I had a mellow birthday dinner thing this past weekend which was nice. I find myself in constant motion lately which has been fun and exciting but today I finally had some down time. It seems easiest though to remain busy and keep myself from having time to think about how hard it is going to be to move again. I love all the constant change and excitement but sometimes its nice to just embrace home. I've had home for the last 9 months though, and its time for me to embark on yet another adventure. Right now I have no idea what my future holds over on the east coast. I hold on though knowing that my Savior does, that I have friends in NY who will help, and that I have a piece of home a few hours away when I need it. Time for me to just hold on and have faith during this next turn in this ride called life, and I think I'm ready. Praise Him always!

questions in life

well i have definitely slacked over the last 4 months or so. i guess my new years resolution didn't last very long. haha. alot has changed since then. i no longer work at intouch sales. the company has lost a substantial amount of money and laid of 25 of us. i'm not entirely upset about this though because i didn't actually enjoy sitting still for endless amounts of time. i have checked in with my counselor and i actually only have 2 classes left to finish my degree. i couldn't be happier about that. i've basically come to a point again where i have to change schools. i'm not sure what my next step is. i think i'm moving out of state, but most likely at least out of the county. so at this point in time, i have no idea where i'll be living in the fall. its going to be a suprise. haha. my life is very much up in the air right now. i seem to be experiencing this strange phenomenon as well. suddenly i seem to be the object of affection of every male thing that moves. while i'm sure this sounds extremely conceited, its true. i dont know when or how it happened but all of a sudden guys are coming out of the woodwork causing the opposite problem of before. haha. however, i think i am still nursing some wounds and do not think pursuing any relationships at this time is a particularly wise idea. in due time, in due time. so currently my life's existance is a bunch of questions: what guy, what shool, what state, what job? i guess this is what happens when you just live day by day without any planning. i'll figure it out eventually. well, Praise Him always!