sleep is a powerful thing and boy do i miss it

well we did go dancing last night and got home around 3am so i'm pretty tired. it was alot of fun though, there was a whole group of us girls going to the stampede to go dancing. we were so ridiculous, none of us knew the dances at all! haha. well i went to church this morning dead tired and with x's still on my hands but that's ok. everyone thought i was sick because my voice was going, i think it was from all the yelling over the music last night though. after church the family finished packing up the rv, they just left a minute ago. it stinks, they're at the beach relaxing and i have to go to work. oh well, at least i like the people i'm working with. everyone at church wants me to go bowling but i have got to take a nap before work tonight or i wont make it... i feel really guilty for some reason. yesterday when i found out that sean's girlfriend had been cheating on him, i was slammed with guilt. it was very weird. it's almost like if i hadn't been avoiding it, we would be together and he never would have ended up with her, and never been hurt. somehow i have made this all my fault. i don't understand why i am doing that but i am. i put everyone's problems on my own shoulders. i've decided that i care too much about people. on the bright side, my worries might not be in vain; faith is finally starting to do better i think.