Timing is everything

well some of my questions have been answered. my desent towards land has finally begun. today has been a very good but unplanned day. this morning i had to drive all the way back to temecula from hunington for a skit at church. then i made my way back up to south bay to attend the service, where i ran into rigo. i was kinda upset about it because i wanted it to just be a time for me to focus and hear from the Lord but God used it. we were able to talk and made the decision that friendship is better suited for us. i was glad to finally have the resolution i was looking for. i feel a weight off of my shoulders. the strange thing about the situation is that, just as rigo is kinda moving out of my life, jake suddenly starts moving back in. i can't help but notice the strangeness of the timing, especially with him not knowing anything about rigo. anyways, the rest of my day was a huge encouragement. i was totally fed in the sermon and then me and marcely were able to hang out and just totally fellowship and talk about things in our lives right now. God has totally placed us in each others lives for a reason. we also went to the high school service tonight and that was a blessing too. God was just pouring Himself into me today and i'm stoked about it. tuesday is the beginning of school again and friday is the end of the girls visit. it seems so long and short at the same time. its been a blessing either way and i look forward to our time spent together in Russia in the spring. Praise Him always!

Patience is a virtue... that I don't have

well the Russians have been here for about a week now. alot has changed i must say. we've already done disneyland, the beach, and cara's boat. The girls seem to be having alot of fun and really enjoying themselves, minus natalie fighting with Rigo. it feels like things have been nonstop since they got here. is it just my imagination? possibly. it doesn't help that i am currently sharing a bed with Carissa and haven't been sleeping most of the time they've been here. i need relaxation and His peace. so many other things are going on that i have no control over. things i need to stop stressing about and just let go of. i can't make him call me anytime sooner. i can't make God's decision for myself. i can't make sure that this semester of school will go well. i can't make sure my mom keeps her job. and i can't make someone hire me. i feel as though i'm in a suspeneded position, hanging above all my decisions, waiting for that one missing piece of information i need to finally land. i so desprately want to land in whatever place it is that God has me but right now, i just need to wait. patiently. oh so patiently. God help me to do so.

This is your Wake up Call, Put on Love!!!

Well, I am finally back in Temecula. This past week has been awesome. God really worked up on the mountain, as He is always faithful to do.

The junior highers were alot of fun and alot easier to keep track of. They were really good about sticking with me. We goofed off, played dead cockroach, and shouted the Bref Stank song. Most importantly though, God worked in my girls lives. The girls mostly learned about how we need to be prepared for the Lord's return and stop sleeping. Some also learned about how to love your enemy when they hate you. Another learned that she needs to be a witness to her dad. In the junior high camp, I relearned a simple lesson. God reminded me how important my Christian friends really are. We need that encouragement and accountability we get with good fellowship. Even luke-warm Christians can bring you down, its not just nonchristians. He also reminded me of His faithfulness in answering prayer. He answered even the silliest prayers up there, just to remind me of His love! Prais Him!

The high schoolers were also really good. We had two get sick but that's the only real problem that we had. I was able to really connect and talk to some of my girls in a way I haven't before. Because of my girls openness and willingness to be change, God did just that. He totally broke them, overwhelmed them, and renewed them, we even had a kid get saved!!! How awesome is that!? God really reminded me about meekness on the high school retreat. I had already finished the junior high retreat and I still had another one to do. I was exhausted and my patience was wearing out. God showed me that I need to not be making comments or fighting back if someone annoys me. "Let it just roll off your back" God is faithful to teach us if we are willing. :)

When i got home from the high school camp, me and Leanna had to drive over to Disneyland to meet up with my mom and Denise. I only lasted a couple hours because I was exhausted but it was good to hang out with them for a while and see them on their birthdays. So at about 12:30 last night, I have finally returned home, changed and renewed. Next step, clean my room and house before the Russians arrive on Wednesday. Praise Him always!