How do I make the nothing in my wallet into something?

well, i no longer work for Kelly's coffee shop. they relocated and said they would call me when they were settled in again. however, i don't want to stay with them since they're so sketchy. so i didn't make it to marina's wedding like i had hoped i would. i am currently completely broke. school is still the same, i'm doing much better with it though, i'm staying more focused but i still hate it. me and Rendell have been dating now for 1 month 11 days. it has been going really well too. we celebrated our one month anniversary by going to Bj's for dinner and planned on seeing fame but we were both too tired. we have been working on the christmas play for a while now too. the practices are going well and most people know their parts now but the girls need to be in sync for this to work correctly. halloween is also this weekend. i think i'll probably just go 50's for the church party. apparently i'm dressing like a cop for chelsae's party though. should be interesting...i also found out that the first russia meeting was this last sunday. i was a little upset that i wasn't informed about it but amy caught me up. apparently its march 20-april 2 and its $3200. ouch. i have no idea how any of this is going to work because i still don't have a job. i know that russia is where i'm supposed to be though so it'll work. i'm being told by someone that it won't work until i break up with Rendell because i'm not doing what God wants me to do by dating him. what's that about? i'm so frustrated by that but its still in the back of my mind... crap.